Of Evaluations & Revaluations

As mentioned earlier, I have just spent two weeks writing backlog exams at Nalsar. One would feel that after having spent five years in law school the college would be more kind and eager to help out its students who were left with backlogs at the end of the last semester. Sorry, not Nalsar. Once an ugly bastard, always an ugly bastard is Nalsar.

Despite imprisioning a bunch of young people within a 55 acre confine for 5 years, they still don't relent in their ways when it comes to doing anything for its students.

I say this because of the following.

In Nalsar if you cannot clear a paper in the first attempt, they allow you to write a repeat exam in the same subject. Alongside the option of writing a repeat there is the option of applying for a revaluation. Now registering for a repeat costs Rs.500 per paper, while applying for a reval costs Rs.1000 per paper. There were 9 of us who were still burdened with repeats after our last semester in college, many of whom - myself included - applied for revaluation in papers where we missed out narrowly. Basically by one mark or less. Whilst applying for reval we had asked the Head of Nalsar Examination Department about the date of release of revaluation results. They'd assured us that the same would be out before the repeats commenced. Obviously, since it doesn't make sense to write a repeat in a paper you've already cleared in the revaluation.

We were further asked to also deposit the amount for repeats along with the reval money, cause well they had set last dates for submission of examination fees. They still hadn't released a date for results though. Now we've all paid for the repeat exams as well revaluation in several papers where we've failed to clear by one mark. Remember they had assured us that the revaulation results would be out before we write our repeats.

Fast Forward to today : I leave Nalsar for the final time after having written all my repeats. Everyone else had already left. We had to write all papers, including the ones we had submitted for revaluation, cause well they haven't declared the results yet. We also have no clue as to when our results will be released. Also none of the fees paid to the examination department are refundable, which means all the money paid towards revaluation and repeats are gone irrespective of whether they actually re-evaluate our papers or not. Either ways, as it turned out we might as well have simply written all our repeats since the reval results coming out now deosn't really do us much good. Any good rather.

It was early morning when I was leaving Nalsar along with an old friend, and I guess somewhere deep within I was praying to be hit by some sort of remorse, or feeling of loss at the same. But I realised that the really sad part was that even now, leaving for the final time - I won't come back here, pass or fail - I felt a sense of relief; one that I feel everytime I leave campus. All I feel after spending 5 years here is relief on leaving.

This makes me sad.